i am sitting on the toilet thinking about how things have gone down recently. it's always hard to figure things out in the moment, and i often find myself pondering topics long into the night when sleep would be preferable.
i want to be happy. i want to live a life where i learn the skills that let me do the things i enjoy, and allow me to use my talents to benefit those around me. it frustrates me to no end when i think about what i could be doing if i just had someone who could genuinely show me how to do it. some people are incapable of learning new things. i have difficulty deciding which new things to focus on learning.
i recently got a new computer and discovered that linux works relatively fine on my old laptops. in doing so i managed to save some of my website files off of those harddrives, but honestly not enough. i am genuinely sad that i dont have a backup of those files anywhere.
i keep thinking i should write some music. i want to get a new guitar.
... but i dont really need another distraction.
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